Decidedly gloomy today, not helped by getting up in the dark and knowing I'll be going home in the dark. And thoughts of mortality. When I got in to work yesterday, I heard that one of the creche workers, someone I've known for years and liked, had died suddenly over Christmas - she was ten years younger than me. And it's suddenly very scary. All the things I haven't done or said that I want to, need to, should do while I still can.